Thoughts

Thoughts

Understanding Comes In Stages

I feel the need to communicate. Seems, they don’t want me to actually speak, and when I do; they don’t listen. It feels very unfair, I’m reduced to having to write what I want to say on public boards, and hope someone will read them. My mortal family doesn’t seem to care? Do they?

The conclusion I have reached, is that most people can not help me. Most people, are small minded, shallow, boring, utterly dull. Maybe, I’m wrong about this? I don’t know anyone! I’ve not had opportunity to spend time with anyone in a very long time. If you have a mind, spend time with me!

The people I do know, talk about the weather, or what ever else they have been brainwashed into thinking. They are not thinking of their own accord, someone else is thinking for them.

They can not help me. I would like to set their minds free, and let them think. That doesn’t seem like it is going to happen. They are too ridged, too programmed, and they won’t talk with me, or spend time with me. I’m not able to get the kind of attention needed to find those who will listen.

Need to find someone that can actually listen, think, and reason. Most people don’t have the freedom of thought required to do such. Someone else is doing all their thinking, and its not them. Pity!

I wanted to have someone to spend time with me. I wanted someone to talk with, to spend time with, and have some fun. That has been denied to me. I have been forced to endure solitary confinement for five years. Totally unfair.

This life, is a problem to me. It isn’t living. It is a living death. A Cage. People don’t understand this, not at all. They live like that, and enjoy it. I think, they are really sick kitties. Something should be done about the cats.

Needed love, and kindness, and understanding. What happened, is they don’t care. Doesn’t matter to them, that I’m alone and hurting. Doesn’t bother them, not at all. That seems unfair, and unkind. Would like them to live my life, just so they know how screwed up it is.

Since most people can not help me, and it seems I’m left to solve my own problems, and since my problem is that most people are asleep, and not thinking of their own accord; it seems like a ruthless double bind. If there was a way to wake some of these people up, and get them to start thinking, and listen to what I have to say about some of this stuff, life could get a lot better.

The problems of an outsider, the problems a misfit has in this world; seems like most people are too shallow, superficial, and boring to really talk with or spend time with. People don’t accept me, as me. They have used stonewalling, silent treatment, isolation, and gas lighting like weapons of warfare. For what? Because they want a warm sack of poo that is a robot? They don’t believe in thinking, or using reason to think about anything. They are Borg.

I know too much, feel too much, and have seen too much. I can never go back to being like they are. They have not been told anything other than what they see on the TV. They haven’t thought about it either. Because the thinking is so far removed from their ability to reason. They don’t understand, so much more is possible, and they may never understand more is possible for all of us.

Seems, not much I can do about this. I’ve done what they wanted me to do, which is rot to death. Wasn’t good enough for them. Even when I was being good. They held me back, held me hostage, wouldn’t let me have my freedom. Seems ruthless.

We want a better world than that. Kindness matters. We need to be able to talk about the problems, and the solutions to these problems. Because everything is cause and effect. The way I’m being treated is going to have bad effects. I care about what they want, but at what cost? Seems they care nothing about me, and only want a robot to be a warm sack of shit. Why bother with that? Its not living. They don’t understand that. They think that kind of life, is great. They enjoy it. They don’t even want to think or talk about it. Feels unfair.

Maybe we need a neutral way to have these conversations that make it better? Because right now, it feels like the tensions are high on their side, and they have started to develop a great deal of hate. That is ugly.