Balance Needed

Balance Needed

Life on a tight rope

For the tight rope walker, balance is key. Step wrong, and you fall to your death. So how does one find balance in this crazy world full of people that don’t care, don’t listen, and don’t think?

The world seems to have a lot of mindless zombies. You have to be able to navigate the world of these problems, and still have balance. Life has to get a lot better for everyone. Everyone!!

So balance really matters here. We need to find the right balance of living, of existence. Life should be interesting, have some challenges, but not be so difficult that it feels always impossible. It should be fun, and make living enjoyable. Life has become unbalanced. Life has moved to feeling impossible for everyone all the time.

We must make life better for everyone. Life has to be a place we can live. We have to feel like we matter, and have value. We have to have our needs met. The world cares nothing about us. Most people don’t give a damn.

Maybe, they do care? Maybe they have apathy and feel helpless? There has to be some way to restore balance, in existence. We want life better. For everyone. How do we make life better for everyone?

There is need for balance. Some lessons, should be learned. Sometimes, you have to learn from others, because it is simply too difficult to learn the lessons yourself. Have some kindness towards others. Do what is best for everyone.

Is life of the bourgeoisie really going to satisfy? It seems like a living death. They don’t think about ideas, or anything really more than the weather? They don’t dream, or really create. They won’t even talk about those things.

And Yet. . .

This is something someone said to me, after I asked for help and for someone to spend time with me. And I quote:

“don’t take this wrong, but I have to ask you what you have done in the last few weeks, or month that would make people come to you and invest their time? I agree you are doing less than 5% of what you may be able.”

Really? Just being an existing person that wants some company, that isn’t good enough for them, you have to have done something to be of any value? Really? I’ve done a lot, no one seems to give a shit. At this point, it doesn’t seem to matter what I do, it is never good enough for them.

I’m tired of the neglect, the abuse, the torment, the isolation. I’m treated like I don’t matter at all. Seems, just working on yourself, on your motivations, and being a good reasonable person, that isn’t enough for them.

Abuse is abuse. Isolation and the small box they have put me into, seems ruthless. I want my freedom, and walking this tight rope, is going to be the end of me. They don’t care about me. They don’t value me. Wasn’t good enough for them, regardless of what I did, or didn’t do.

And there is a lot I didn’t do. I should have done a lot more. If I had some friends, someone to work with, or spend time with; I would have accomplished a lot better. Such as it is, they have me by the throat, and the balls. Not much I can do about this. Not able to change my life, not to save my life.