READ: Can you love me?

READ: Can you love me?

Growth, Change, Developments. . .

The Problem:

Change is difficult. It can be done, and what is needed is some help to grow, change, and develop into what I want to become. I’ve been doing some serious thinking, and research. Here are some of my findings, that I can see are in need.

Findings

Self esteem is made of several factors. You can read the full article here, or keep reading to see my brief summary. These are things that have been issues for many years. Seems, there has to be some solutions to these problems.

The 4 Components Of Self Esteem

1. Self Confidence
2. Identity
3. Feeling of Belonging
4. Feeling of Competence

These are the four main factors to having good self esteem. Can you figure out which ones are problems for me? Take a guess? What is your answers?

For years, I have emotionally abused myself to much harm. I knew what the problem was, for years. I wasn’t able to solve it, or fix it. Seems I need some real help to make things better. The main problem, is that of Feeling of Belonging. I feel like a stranger in this world, with no real connections in life. I want to change this. I want good results, and for this problem to get a lot better.

For over twenty years, I have had years upon years of feeling isolation, feeling like I don’t have any friends, and no one in this world that loves me (other than my Mumz & eteP.); I’ve tried to make friends, I’ve done what I could to change the results, and nothing has worked out for me. I feel so foreign. Like an outsider in this world, that people don’t listen, or understand me. I’ve worked for years to leave as much information as possible so people could someday understand me. Still, I want to be understood and loved.

While the main problem is that with belonging; that problem alone, has caused many problems with the other factors. Sometimes, I feel competent. I do not feel like the same person I was five years ago. Not at all. I still respond to my name; however, I feel that person is gone. I feel this is a problem. I liked who I was a few years ago. There were some good qualities about me.

There are some good qualities about me now, but it seems they are full of holes. There is so much good that could be put into me. Would it stick? Would we see results that last? I want results that last and work for everyone.

Need some sense of connection that feels real to me. If this problem is solved in time, the other problems; may vanish. I would like to see solutions to these problems. I really would.

Want To Help?

If you want to help me, someone is going to have to care. They will have to care to have conversations with me, and spend time with me. The quality matters. We want to have positive conversations. Things that make life truly better for everyone. I’m open to conversations about the true God. It will take some real effort on my part, I do however think it can be done.

I’m tired of emotionally abusing myself, and tired of the problem of feeling like an outsider in this world. I need some love, and real kindness shown. The way this is. It should have never reached this point. It has reached a point that the tipping point will be reached without some real effort. I’m making what effort that I can; however, I need some help. Just support, kindness, encouragement, and some love.