The Heart Of The Matter

The Heart Of The Matter

I’m trying to understand. . .

The Problem:

When people like you, they tend to see the best in you. However, when they don’t like you, they will always see the worst in you. When people only see your faults, it is a rough place to be.

Unexpected Results

When there is no longer any forgiveness, the black sheep becomes the scapegoat. Seems to be the way this world works. We know from history, that they used to kill the black sheep, and they wasn’t wanted. They may keep a few token black sheep around, just so they will have a scapegoat to blame.

I’ve been thinking. About what people want. They seem to understand religion and politics perfectly. They want people that remind them of their favorite religious leaders, or politicians. They want people that fit into their box like they want to believe they should. They however do not see any beauty in things that don’t remind them of what that box should look like.

Ostracism

The level of being shunned and treated like a fifth class citizen, has made the kettle to the point that it has boiled dry, and is burning a hole in the bottom. This will result in the kettle being re-purposed, or discarded in whole. No one wants a piece of junk kettle with a hole in the bottom. It is useless to everyone. I believe, they no longer even try to mend such things.

I’ve been pushed out of society, and life. Not a friend in this world nowhere. And at this point, the way they have made me feel, I’m not sure that I want any. Seems today, you can no longer trust anyone with anything. Even good people.

I’m sorry for being a problem no one wants. I feel there is no longer any forgiveness for me. They have never once said they forgive me. I’m lonely and tired, and no one seems to care anylonger. The level of being pushed away has reached epic purportions. Wish it were going better. Seems the way things are. Nothing I can do about it.

I will say this, I Only wanted to be loved. Seems, I’m not good enough. Thinking is difficult, that is why most people judge. You should never judge a book by its cover. But being a black sheep is a dead giveaway. People see you coming from miles around.

Thoughts. . .

When God likes you, then you find everyone in your corner or rooting for you; and when God doesn’t like you, the flies gravitate to you like you are a piece of shit.