Almost Broke Out Of This Cage

Working at it!

“Birds born in cages, believe flying is an illness.”

― Alejandro Jodorowsky

The Problem:

The last six years, have been intensely strange. Between the isolation, and the amount of work I’ve completed in my free time, a person would have to wonder about how to feel about that. It could be seen as both good, and bad.

However, starting to see some results from progress being made. People that are doing other things like myself, have began to have some limited interactions with me. That feels pretty good.

A person can be happy about that. That is progress. There is still much that needs to be done, and much progress to be made. However, they say if you start with something, and work to make it better, then that is better than nothing.

Solutions?

Although this isn’t the final destination, it is a start to making progress. And that feels like something better than nothing. Nothing is difficult to deal with. That living like zombie cat poo, is enough to make a person want to get seriously motivated. It isn’t that I’m not motivated, because really I am.

The problems are that I’ve been living in fear, confusion, and a general feeling of being at the brink of destruction. Seems any breath could have been my last. One wrong move, and I would be gone for good. I’m starting to spring back from some of that.

It has been a rough year. And the problems were my fault, so it seems. At least, I took the blame for them. Isolation does very bad things to a person. Endure enough of that, and you will eventually loose your mind. I’m trying to keep my sanity in valid places. Really when people treat you like you’re not valid, it messes with your in ways that cause scars.

Getting some real interaction, and getting a conversation going is one of my goals. I want life better for everyone. And time and time again, I have written about solutions to some of the problems. They have all been treated like worthless trash. No one has even talked with me about them. Not really.

Without communication, nothing can take place. Nothing will change, and nothing will get better. And that is a tough place to be. I have a saying,

“When faced with a rock and hard place; climb the rock.”

Back from the days, when I used to climb, and had a better life. Still, it is a good way to face problems.

Facing Problems

I’m bored and lonely. My projects the last year, have been very limited, and not very productive. There is some writing that I’ve managed to produce. Some of them may matter someday to some people. Not everyone see’s it the way that I do. And that is okay. People that do see value in it, may understand better than most.

My hope, is that you are never in a situation, that you need to take my advice. It does help to be aware of the problems ahead of time; however, it’s best if it never happens to you personally. That would be very bad.

Sometimes, the world can be a complex place. No one really can understand everything about it, and keep their sanity intact. Often, life is best left a mystery. Don’t try to figure everything out. There is less pain in doing that. However, when you are alone, and isolated, and you enjoy thinking to yourself; then you can get into all kinds of trouble with trying to discover the secrets to life.

I’ve done a lot of the heavy lifting for people. It will save you a lot of pain, not having to think these thoughts from nothing. Because, that takes a lot of effort. Most people don’t think outside the box much, much less about what is in the box. They are content with their TV set, and microwave dinner.

Better For Everyone!

We want life to be better for everyone. That means living a life, that is meaningful, productive, useful, and enjoyable. The longer you live, the more you want quality of life. When you are young, you feel indestructible, and when you get old; life is painful. It’s important to keep matters in balanced thinking. If you take it easy on yourself growing up, and don’t get hurt much, then getting older isn’t as painful. Really, who is smart enough to do that? Seems everyone wants to live a full life. I know, that I do. Even now, I want more from life. There is the need to be active, and enjoy my living. What matters to me, is relationships with people that are proper people.

If you read my articles on here, you will know what I’ve been struggling with, and the problems in my way with trying to fix these problems. Seems, no one cared, or listened. Without communication, nothing changes. So, I’m trying to break out of this cage, and find a meaningful life, that is worthy of living.

I’m limited in what I can do. Wouldn’t be able to climb a rock with the shape my health is in right now. I would fall and die. Still the problem is psychological. Making progress everyday towards those things, and being a better man for what I’ve done in my life.

Setbacks

Still, everyone has things that knock them off their feet, and set them back. Sometimes, those things take longer to heal from than others. I’ve been knocked down a lot. The last twenty years, I’ve been knocked flat on my back, and tried rising back up to stand on my own two feet again. Seems every time, I stand up, they knock me down again. I’m either waiting for the death punch that kills me, or the victory that heals me. Until then, I will continue to try standing back up, and living a life that makes sense to me personally.

If you read everything I’ve been talking about, keep in mind, I’m searching for answers, not all of it may be true.

“To know the truth,

you have to know what some of the lies are.”

I’m looking for answers, and ways to fact check my thoughts, without someone to bounce ideas off, and get feedback; the loop just goes in cycles, spinning my wheels for nothing.

Seems this cage, needs to be with built in fact checkers. The problem is, you can not trust everyone that has an opinion about something. Because everyone has been born into this world. You would need wisdom from outside this world, to understand it all. Yet again, life is best left a mystery. So enjoy your life, enjoy what you do. And, make the best of it.

Conclusion

Will say this, more is possible. However, you have to ask yourself what is practical? Maybe we should only know what is really practical and forget what is possible? The trouble with thinking too much about life’s possibilities, and not having good input about my ideas. My belief is more should be possible, and that it is practical. However, maybe; I’m wrong?

I’m starting to feel better about this; maybe, it will get better! Truth is, I’m inspired with some of the people that have interacted with me. Thanks!!