What Is True?
Written By A Real Person
What Is True?
Am I A Narcissist?
Note: No one seems to be reading. So this is bits in the ether. . . .
The Problem:
It feels like I’m deprived. And, I feel hated. It feels like people are ghosting me, and ignoring me in whole. There is a very limited supply of love and affection. Bare minimum of feedback, and correspondence.
They say: “Personality Disorders Are Incurable.” That is what I’ve heard. So what is true? Some people, have called me an empath. Doesn’t seem anyone has called me a narcissist to my face.
Yet, I’m not getting the attention, love, or affection that I would like to see. Maybe how the situation is to be handled determines if I’m really a narcissist? What is true?
The isolation, and the lack of friends, makes me feel hated. There is no supply of people to talk with, or spend time with. It feels like I’m deprived. There is no romantic interest in my life, and it has been a long time since I had a girlfriend.
In my mind, being deprived, would cause someone to have some very narcissistic tendencies. Seems, to be some double bind, with no good solutions, or answers.
I’ve done everything that I could, to make new friends, and be around other people. Nothing has worked out. And my condition only gets worse. Seems to me, no one cares? Is the world really that sick, or is it just me?
It feels like to me, if this situation isn’t fixed properly, there are some very real narcissistic tendencies that I could develop. You want to avoid that? Spend some time with me!!
What matters is keeping things in proper balance, and perspective. With balance, better results are possible.
Facts
Everyone needs someone sometimes. Everyone deserves to feel loved, accepted, and wanted. When people are treated like they are unlovable, it has very bad effects upon a person’s psyche; and can be harmful.
The important thing, is keep things in proper balance. Not too much, not too little. And really when things are in proper balance, people can be much easier to get along with. When life is not balanced right, it has all kinds of bad effects. And, everything is cause and effect.
Truth
Seems they don’t respect me for my creative work, or what I’m doing. If the only thing they respect, is people that are moral to fault, then really the only thing they are going to respect; is a warm sack of shit. Would really like to avoid doing that. It’s not living, that would be a living death. Why bother?
I did write a story about something that I want, seems to me, no one has really read it. It would be a dream come true. You can read the story here: The Ultimate Selfie (free)
Not sure if that would be a cure to narcissism, or a real problem? What do you think? You should have some thoughts about it.
There are things that I want, to make life more bearable. Life is meant to be lived. And, a living death; isn’t living. They say:
To Live Is The Rarest Thing In the World.
Most People, Just Exist.
-Oscar Wild
Want to do a lot more, than just exist. To me, that is awful. A living death, and zombie cat shit of an existence; is tragic waste of life. Most people, let that happen to them, and really I have to wonder; if they are not totally miserable for eternity.
Pride
Too much pride is folly. A person only needs enough pride, to respect themselves, and others. Being too full of pride, will lead to problems.
If It’s True
If it is true that I’m a narcissist, then the only real reconciliation (free) people will have, is that someday I will die. Seems there are no cures, or ways to fix it. Wanted better results than this. Things need to be balanced, and properly put into perspective. Everyone needs someone sometimes. Don’t deprive me of love and kindness. Subject anyone to abuse long enough; it will have bad results. Think About it.
If love and kindness become luxury goods in life; who can afford to live?
Conclusion
Truth is, we want good results. Only the best. Don’t want to be a narcissist. Would like to be better than that. And, I expect better results than that from myself. Want to avoid having bad results. If no one will help, and no one cares; what good comes from that? Neglect, indifference, are not kind.
Things have to be kept in balance. When things are not balanced, problems will always surface.