Maintenance

Written By A Real Person

Maintenance

Need some upkeep. . .

The Problem:

I’ve worked quite diligently on my writing, for the last six years. Looking at my stats, you would think, I started writing last week. I’m not sure where the proper balance point will be; however, something needs to change.

Thought, that I would have seen better results than this. Doesn’t feel like, anyone is reading, or thinking. Maybe there are a number of readers who are in zombie mode; it doesn’t however feel like there are any thinking people reading my work. Maybe, they are all bots?

Balance

Need to feel like my effort, is not in vain. Been working for some six years in what feels like a vacuum. There is very little feedback taking place. And the limited amount of feedback that I do get, isn’t quite doing it for me.

Need to feel like, this work has some value, and will matter someday. To whom, I do not know. However, it needs to feel like it is more than random bits of text on the screen. That kind of sucks. Want real people to read what is written, and understand it. That matters a lot.

Not really going to believe that everyone is too busy to read my work. I don’t buy that. Not for one second. People make time for what they think matters, and if no one is reading my work; that tells me; that I’m not important enough for them to spend their time with me. And, that feels like some double bind with a dagger in my back.

Want good results

Want good results from my efforts. Want to make life worth living and have something that makes people feel content, and happy. I also want to make people use their minds, and start thinking about things a little more.

So very often, people are in autopilot mode. They don’t read long enough to have anything change their thinking, and that is kind of a problem. How can you get good results when people read in autopilot mode? They aren’t thinking about what they are reading, and they don’t think about it later.

It matters to me

The things that I write about, matter to me. And, if you want to make me feel valued at all, you should at least be able to read it, and comment on it. Right = ? It would seem reasonable enough to me, that people at least be willing to give me that much. That feels like a reasonable request.

If what I’m talking about is so very unimportant to you, that you don’t take the time to understand it, or think about it; then it doesn’t feel like you value me more than a warm sack of poo.

Maybe I shouldn’t write here at all, and just post total crap generated from an AI bot, that is stupid crap about nothing in particular. I’m not really sure, that anyone would know the difference? Would they? No one is reading now, and I don’t expect that to change.

And with the amount of time, that I have spent writing this content, to have no one reading, or giving feedback; makes keeping it up, a real challenge.

Truth

Will continue to write, regardless if people read it or not. However, it makes me feel like there is a very diminished value on my life. Doesn’t feel like my life matters enough for anyone to care what I write. And, that is pretty sad. Real people, have value, and should be properly cared for. To treat me like that, is a real sign of disrespect. And, that is how I’m going to take it.

Next time they want something from me, it may not ever happen for them.