Bored
Written By A Real Person
Bored
The way things are. Trying to deal with it…
The Problem:
I’m lonely. Not just any lonely; but a deep sense of being alone in the universe. Even when I’m around other people, I still feel this feeling of being alone. There is a real sense of not having a good connection with other living people. And, that will make anyone feel lonely.
Wanted some better connections. I’ve tried to restore balance, and maintain peace. It just feels like nothing is working out, as expected. Feeling like, they don’t really want or need me. What is true ?
I’m a bored puppy. Feeling like, shit. A lot of that, has to do with the way things are with my life. It could be made better, if people listened. Or were thinking people. Seems they neither read, or think. I’ve tried to salt the ideas, in ways that my hopes where they would understand them. Or at least, get the gist of the flavor. Seems to be a total failure. Not sure if that is my problem, or theirs? Maybe, both. You never know.
Not that I’m trying to point fingers. It just seems that no matter what I’m doing, its never good enough. And that smarts. Like a bugger. Feeling lost in life. Like I’ve been out to sea, for far too long. Or maybe, I’ve been in exile, far too long. It just seems that life is emotionally abusive.
Wanted to put some beauty back into life. Wanted to do something pretty. I’m seeing some problems with the fact things are not looking pretty to me. Everything seems so ugly. They complained when I was seeing the world with rose colored glasses. Everything was beautiful, and oh so pretty. They didn’t like that attitude.
And now, everything seems so damn ugly. It’s enough to make me want to puke. Things have lost their flavor. I don’t see much that makes me really happy. The way things are, it has lost it’s charm. Some love would help… When a person feels loved, everything is better. I’ve felt totally unlovable for a long time. And, its not getting any better. Things seem to be getting worse. Why? They don’t like my flavor? Hey the coffee is pretty good.
Some Random Thoughts
Been thinking. About life. And how things are. What I think would be good, is if I could wrap my mind around the problems, and do something about them. Have some real problems with the way I look right now. I guess, if I was able to accept the fact, that this body is only an avatar and really very temporary. I could try to deal with that a little easier.
That would be some comfort. In the event, there was a fresh suit, waiting for me right quick. Take this suit off, and put on a nice clean one. Think I want some custom mods to the new body I want. We will see. Depends on how long I have to wear it. That will decide a lot of stuff.
Bored
No one is reading my work. And, it seems that if they do read it, they fail to understand it. I’m not sure, if it doesn’t make sense to them, or if they are just not actually reading my work. I have my doubts. It’s not good for my creative side, to be neglected like that. It is suffocating. That is not pleasant. Feeling like, the way things are. Wanted so much better.
I’m bored with the way things are. Want some real peace in my life. Feeling like, what is missing, is some real love. I’m not feeling loved, or wanted. And, that problem is hurting my feelings. And having hurt feelings, causes all kinds of internal conflict to have to sort out. And, it isn’t pretty.
Want some love in my life. Want life better. And they should start showing some love. The way things are. This loveless existence, is suffocating. It doesn’t feel good. And, I don’t like the conditions. Its not right. Seems very unfair. Feeling like, something has to change. Want it to get better. Right quick.
See The Thing Is
I’m a real person. This body is just an avatar. I’ve been trying to communicate with them, and establish peaceful relations with them. We want life better for everyone, and they have to be willing to listen to me about some things. It matters!
In the event, no solutions or good answers present themselves; people are going to have problems. We want to avoid that. Really, want to avoid that. However, in the event; they won’t listen to me, then they get what is coming to them. And right now, it just seems impossible to deal with them. We don’t seem to be communicating well. Want to establish peace with them.
At least, I’m not an alien. There should be some test, to be able to confirm if people are really aliens. It would be good to know.