Illusions

Illusions

Some things to think about

The Problem:

Only heaven knows… Life seems to be some hard knocks. Really, how much of something that sucks does a person have to put up with? We were tired of the problems, years ago. And it just keeps going, on, and on, and on. Oh my!

Do you know what I’m seeing? What I mean, is can you see through my eyes? Do you know me? They say, “No guru can see through your eyes.” Have to wonder, if you do see through my eyes. Is there some door in my head, that lets people get a look at my life? That’s pretty twisted. Who would be weird enough, to want to do that? And the more important question, that must be asked: Why? What do they stand to gain from it?

Well, you might get to hear some cool tunes playing in the background. And you might get to hear all my thoughts. hmm… Someone somewhere knows what you thought this morning, or what you said under your breath.

You should live, like everyone knows everything about you. And, still be able to live with yourself. There are no secrets, in the matrix. None!!

It is all there, in hi-definition video and audio. Your whole life. They don’t play the video until after you die, and you have to watch, as they audience is shocked at your behavior. Then you have to live with yourself after that.

Wow, what an eye opener. Would you watch your thoughts, if you knew, everything you thought, was recorded by a computer? They know, what you were thinking, and what you were doing. There are no secrets in the matrix. Everything is known.

Yeah

Hey, I’ve known that a long time. I’ve been living, like someone will live my life, for a long time. They will see through my eyes, and know my thoughts, and my feelings. They will know, how much pain I’ve endured thus far. They will know, every kind word I’ve thought. They will know, everything I’ve written. There is a lot of that.

They will know how I drive, and the excitement of my life. They will know what babe I thought was hot, and which ones, that I wasn’t impressed with. They will know, that I wrote this. And, the word, I just thought silently to myself. They will know what music I listen to, and how many times, I press the fast forward button, and all the times, I sang along.

How Are You Living?

If people were to live your life, just like it was; have to wonder, what people would think of you? Did you enjoy living? Did you get a kick now and then? Did you live like zombie cat shit, for your whole life? Really what we want to know, is who would want to live your life? Would anyone really want to live your life, just like it was, and not be able to change anything, just going along for the ride. If you live my life, there is some hurt here. Most people, wouldn’t like it much. It’s not been fun.

To be honest, this life, has not been a good one. So much hurt, so many times, that life was a living death. People someday, might wonder, how a person could be so strong, to endure this much hurt? If you knew the whole story, like you only could if you lived my life.

You might come out of it, and respect me. That is my hope. My hope is that you would find a lot to like about me. And that you wouldn’t hate me. If you knew the whole story, the full story, and how it all happened.

The Real Question

Would I want to live your life? What have you thought, or done, that makes life matter? Are you respected, loved, and wanted? That might be worth something. There are things, that I haven’t felt in a long time. Maybe someone in this world, is loved enough to wipe away the hurt from my aching heart. Maybe someone in this world, is more than magnetic ink, and a real person? A real person’s life, would be worth living, right = ?

Don’t really want to live any of the lives of fake people. That would be dull, and a total drag. They didn’t think, or listen, or have any real fun. If the only things you’ve done is get drunk, or stoned; then I’m not really sure that would be worth the time to play your file. If you spent your life, watching the TV, I’m sure that might be useful to some people, but how many people’s lives would you want to live, that watched the same tv shows, like a herd of sheeple?

I guess, some of these people, that their lives, would be like a re-run. Just eating, and watching the same tv shows, going from person to person. Wouldn’t you get tired, of watching those tv shows? Would those movies, still make you laugh, or cry; if you had seen them, thousands of times? Or a million times. My thoughts, are that would get stale after a while.

How much is enough? Tell you what, you get tired of playing peoples files, and watching the same TV shows, and dull boring living; play my file all the way through. Live my life, as a passenger, and experience the whole thing.

Maybe, that would be a wake up call. Life has to get better. For everyone. Even me. Don’t forget me. My life matters, and has value. I’ve been through some real total crap; however, if the problems were fixed, it would be better.