You Have To Understand

You Have To Understand

Do you get it?

The Problem:

Despite, the past. I want to live. The problem that you have to understand, is that the quality of life; is what matters. Living like zombie cat shit, isn’t living. That, is an existence. Want to do a lot more than exist.

Truth be told, I’m not happy. I don’t want to live, every life like this one. That would be torture. If future lives, are as bad as this life, that would totally suck. I want my future lives, to be better than this. By a lot.

In the event, I was stuck in vortex of living this life, over and over again, and they don’t want to make my life better than it is, it would be a crime. For sure. I want justice for that. The way things are, want peace here.

Want to be able to live my life. That means being active, and being liked and respected by those that matter. I’m not feeling the love here. This life is almost toxic. It isn’t a good lesson to learn, especially more than once. In the event, I’ve learned my lessons, I want to move on with living.

Want to stop making the same stupid mistakes, and start really living. That would make sense, right = ?

Want good results from my efforts. And I expect only the best. The way things are, my project has to work like it is supposed to; and achieve the desired results from it. It has to be good. There is need for balance, but in the whole of the project, it has to be mostly good.

Want what I’m worth. And, not really willing to settle for less than that. Feeling like, damn it. the way things are, this life. Want to get on with living. Want life better for everyone. Want my life better.

Don’t want to live like I am currently. Maybe it is a problem with being stuck here, being a mammal. Don’t want to live, like an animal. I’m so tired of this human living. The activity levels, are so very low, I’m going to die, of inactivity. And, that sucks. That isn’t how life is meant to be lived. Damn it. Feeling like, shit. Want peace here.

Want to be able to live. Want to live for a long time. I believe that a person can live more than one life. The real question is what is true? Some say: “You only live once.” In my mind, that is an awful waste of life. That would be really a sad thing. Life is meant to be lived. And, If we only get one, even on repeat, it wouldn’t be good.

Want to be able to have some fun. Feeling like, damn it. How should one live? What should a person do, in their lives? Wish, that I had done a lot more. If one life is all we get, I’ve done so very little, that this life, would seem pathetic. And, a total waste. So much time, wasted. Squandered. And, that is a sin. If one is all we get, then there is a problem here.

Seems I’ve been living with damaged wetware. And, I want a full refund on this life. The last twenty years or longer, have all be sucking shit. Feeling like, damn it. Want justice here. If this life, is on repeat, and I’m stuck with this shit, the only solution would be death. What is true? I’m not happy like I am. Not able to change this shit to save my life. No one will help, and it seems to me, that no one cares. Am I here alone? That is how it feels.

Want peace here. Want results. Feeling like, damn it. Someone talk with me. Help me make sense of this shit. Why are things like they are? Why am I unable to live my life? Want answers. Tired of living like zombie cat shit.

No one to talk with about this stuff. Feeling like, damn it. Does no one care?

This world, in my humble opinion, sucks. Want better.