Early Morning Thoughts

Written By A Real Person

Early Morning Thoughts

Can You Understand Me?

Like Waves

The feelings come and go. Like waves breaking on a beach. The isolation; causes feelings of panic to surface. There were some important things, that I wanted to say to people. Doesn’t feel like people understand me very well.

Been waiting for better opportunities, to talk about things with people. And, thus far; none have surfaced.

My hopes have been multifaceted. One of my hopes; has always been to inspire others; to be creative. That has been a goal of mine. The other goals, was to be able to find meaning and purpose in my artistic creations.

Seems like, those two parts of what was wanted; haven’t really panned out for me. I might have found some meaning in my work; however, most people don’t understand it.

In some ways, I’ve benefited from my efforts; because, i understand myself a lot better than when i went into this whole project. Of the hopes that I’ve had with that, my main objective; was for others to be able to understand me better. It helps when you understand something complex, and it doesn’t feel as scary as it used to when it all seemed like it was totally unknown.

Thoughts

Want life a lot better than this. Quality matters a whole lot. They say: If you have love, trust, and respect; then you have everything. There is much that is lacking from my life.

The way i’ve been treated, has really been a difficult thing to understand, and make sense of. Still even now, i don’t understand all that nonsense. I don’t see what they had to gain from it? Does anyone know? Seems it’s left everyone with issues they aren’t able to solve.

Want some love in my life. Truth be told, i feel hated. The ghosting, and silent treatment, have taken a toll on me. The isolation; is enough to hurt a person.

Want peace here. Really want some peace that feels like peace. Want good results; that work like they should. Seeing some good results; would be nice. Want love, and peace in my life. The way things are; people don’t think much of me.

I suppose, they are busy; and likely have important things to tend to. Still, when people matter, others make time for those that they like. Doesn’t feel like anyone has made much effort.

Still

There is much to be said. If you knew the whole story; maybe you would understand me a lot better. Give it some thought; and consider getting to know me. It might be one of the best decisions you ever make. Maybe ?

Wish there was some way to make people understand. Or to kindle love, and kindness in the hearts and minds of other people. Some things, have to be tended to, and friend, you should see to that much for yourself.

Are you tending to your joy, and happiness? What have you done, for your mind in the last few weeks, or months? What about your heart? Don’t let your heart become like an empty crypt. You want to keep some flowers about; and, tend to them on a regular basis.

I’m awful lonely; and also in more pain that a person should have to endure. I’ve not had, the comforts; or the peace that would have made it feel better. Not sure, why the world is this way. I don’t understand it all. Of what i do understand, i know; a whole lot has to change.

Seems the whole world, needs a software update; and maybe the code was buggy from the start. Things don’t seem to be functional right now.

Wish that it was possible; to reset the system; to factory defaults. You would forget everything you know, and find a new operating system in place; and have a new life, that was better than this one.