Well What Is True?
Well What Is True?
Either I’m Completely Oblivious or They Are; Which?
The Problem:
Either I’m completely oblivious; and don’t know better,
or
They are not too bright.
Which is true?
The isolation, has taken tolls on me. It feels like everyone wants me to lay down, and die for them. They don’t value, love, trust, or respect me.
And, to be honest; I’ve kinda got hurt feelings about it.
Unless this is some kind of sick joke; it doesn’t feel like a kind thing to do to someone. Would like some answers to my questions, and want to feel a lot better about this whole situation.
Maybe you can talk with me, and help me feel a little better?
Feeling like, the isolation is about to sever my relationships with everyone that I know. And, that wouldn’t be pretty. Want to avoid that.
I love them; however not enough to lay down and die for them.
Want peace with them. The way things are, I’m not too happy about the way things are. Not feeling loved, or wanted.
And, those feelings; would wear heavy with anyone. Carry them long enough; and you have some real problems.
Wish that my mortal family would make up with me. The ghosting, stonewalling, and silent treatment; are all taking a heavy toll on me.
Doesn’t feel like anyone that is human, wants me to continue living.
What is true? Do they want me to live? Wish they would stop treating me like i don’t exist. The way things are, I’m not able to change it.
Want good results.
Maybe I’m wrong about it? Someone should explain what the problem here really is. Because, I don’t understand why the treatment is like it is.
Blogging is DEAD
Seems to me, people don’t read. They don’t listen, and people write, because people don’t listen. Seems like there is no winning with them.
The way things are, I’ve grown weary of this. Want to make better use of my time. And, one of the problems is that, in the two plus years, that I’ve been searching for better projects to work on; nothing has come up.
There are almost zero opportunities in this world for me. The way things are going, this ship is going to crash. Not sure anyone will care. Doesn’t seem like anyone gives a damn. Feels like i’m wasting my time with this.
Would really like to make better use of my time. Unless there start to be some results that start happening; like right quick; I’m going to move into doing something else. Because the last six years of my life; have not seen results from my efforts.
The way things are, want love in my life. Want to be loved, trusted, and respected. And, I’m not getting that from writing on any platform. Nothing has worked out for me. Seems people don’t read, think, or listen.
So; what is the god damn mother fucking problem?
Want answers. . .