Five Years, From Now. . .

Five Years, From Now. . .

Some Thoughts About It

The Problem:

Life is complex. Want my situation to be better than this; in five years from now. Nothing has changed, in the last seven years; and my future; doesn’t look really great right now.

Further

Want to be successful with my projects. Whatever that means. The way things are; it feels like I’m going to die, a failure. This doesn’t really look like much success. And, no one seems to notice; they neither know the effort that I’ve put forth, or the time it has taken me.

Wish people would read my work. While, I’m still living. The way this is; doesn’t seem like I’ve made much progress in my life.

The Last Seven Years

In the last 7 years; my life has not changed much; as a matter of a fact; it has gotten a lot worse. The way I’m living like a damn zombie; is worse, than it had been. Three, four years ago; i was living better than this…

The way things are; maybe I’ve progressed some. It is difficult to measure progress sometimes. How does a person really measure their progress? In the event i knew the answer to that, I might get some relief.

The way things are. Want to be in better condition; in five years from now; then my present situation. Not sure what I’m going to have to do; to make that happen. Doesn’t feel like anything is working for me.

This life feels like a damn vacuum to me. Like a cruel and ruthless cage. It feels like it is just myself; talking with myself; and no one else seems to get it; you wouldn’t believe how lonely this feels to me.

What works?

What effort would i have to put forth, to see results? Want to know the answer to that question. Seems nothing i’ve done online, is working out worth a load of laundry.

What works for this environment? Wish i knew the answer to that question. It would help me a lot, if i knew where to put my effort, and what progress that I could expect to see from that effort. Maybe that would be something that could be measured? One would hope for such.