The Anomaly
The Anomaly
You want to keep me around. . .
The Problem:
This world, feels awful lonely right now. To such an extent; it makes me question my existence. As in, why bother? No one is really paying attention to me, nor will i get them to communicate with me. It hurts me. A lot!!!!
No one seemed to care about that. Why? Doesn’t seem correct. My mortal family; seems to hold a whole lot of contempt for me. To be honest, I’m not even sure, what their problem is. Wish that i understood it.
Exactly, what behavior do they object to so vehemently that they would treat me like this? Okay i understand, they don’t like smoking cigarettes. But, what else do they object to? Even if i stopped smoking, it wouldn’t fix the problems with them. Why?
It doesn’t feel correct to me. These people only will take a mile, in the event that i give them an inch. The way things are; there is no one to talk with about any of this stuff. No one really listens to me. They don’t even bother to read what i write. Ouch!!
Want peace with them. The way things are, i feel totally hated. It is no mystery to me, that I’m not loved, or wanted here. But, why? That part, is beyond me. I don’t understand it. We aren’t communicating; and so they leave me no choice, but to try and guess why they hate me.
What i do know; you don’t treat people you want to live, like they do me. Tired of the abuse here. It is killing me. I’m not happy being treated like this, and no one has come to my aid. I’m not able to bring these issues up with them. I can write about this stuff, until I am blue in the face; they don’t give a shit. The contempt they hold for me; means that i don’t have any chance in hell of them thinking about what i have to say.
Feeling like, this has to change for the better. Want good results. The way things are, they don’t give a shit, what i want. They will not even consider, what i want. It isn’t even something that they can talk about with me. I’ve tried; and the only thing that I have found; is that it is pointless to argue with them; because they don’t understand the argument. Pity.
What is the problem?
It isn’t that i’m stupid. However, without communication; there is no way to know, what exactly their problem is. What does it come down to for them?
Doesn’t feel like anyone in this world, will value me, or love me. And the way things are; i have a problem with that. Doesn’t make me feel like i matter enough for them to spend time with me. And, why?
Feeling like, the way things are; no one will miss me when i die. Pity. If they knew me well, they would find a lot to like about me. They haven’t taken the time to get to know me. And, it seems they only love; what they can control, and manipulate. Feels to me, like they only want puppets, and warm sacks of poo. Sick world.
Want Peace With Them
The way things are, want peace with them. That means we have to communicate. The way things are, this doesn’t feel like it's going to end well for any of us. Want to avoid, those problems, like right now!!
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