An Infinity of Eons

An Infinity of Eons

A story. . .

In the Depths Of An Adventure

I have a very long memory. From what I remember, even being a small child, there are memories from about age two. Maybe going back further than that.

How it started, will remain a mystery. Of what I’m at liberty to say; is that I remember a dream, that happened when I was only two or three.

In this dream, I was having a conversation with the God the father. He asked me what I wanted to do with my life. I responded, and said that I wanted to work.

Needless to say, he didn’t like my answer. Yet, although he said that my way would never be successful; there was some hope for me.

Ever since I was young, I was geared towards working for my life. Even at age five, I was telling people, that I was going to work. I even wanted to put a sign up advertising bicycle repairs. I was deep in it.

Growing up, I worked my butt off. When i turned 18, I was working full time. And, I was doing pretty well. For a while. Seems people made other plans for my life. I’m not going to call it sabotage, just yet. What I will say; is that my life took some unexpected turns.

I worked, and did my best. For nine years. I was happy, and successful. And things were going good. I’m not sure what exactly happened to me. It was horrible.

Needless to say; they took my being able to hold a job, away from me. My whole identity was tied up in my work life, and doing a regular nine to five job.

And what resulted from that, was the destruction of my persona. Everything that I believed in, was taken from me.

Now, twenty three years later. I’m not sure how the father views me. I’ve tried to stay true to what I said I would do. However, I’ve not seen success from my efforts. It seems like everyday the ship is sinking, and I’m drowning.

Wish that I would have been able to do what I said I would do. That is something that matters. People should do what they say they will. I believe in being a man of my words.

I’ve since, had other dreams, and other terrors of the night. No one would believe me about any of them. I won’t go into details about any of them. It’s best that way.

What I will say; I’m looking for relief, that feels like relief. They destroyed me, almost in whole. What is left of me, is what the dark couldn’t kill in me.

I do believe in doing good things. I see the need for kindness, and being loving. Those things, are not even in question for me. This world, is not a kind place sometimes. And, I long for a world, that is much better than this current system.

And, thinking about it. My goals, are still to do something about this world, that makes things better for everyone. By making their lives better, it improves the quality of my life. So really making other peoples lives better, in turn, makes my life that much better.

Maybe I can find some work, to make this world a better place? That would hold true with what I told the father, and still make the kind of difference in life, that I seek.

Really a person should look at life, as a mission. Seems I’m about out of time for this project. I sense that my time in this world, is seriously limited. And, to be honest I’m not sure what kind of fate I’m going to have to come to terms with. It could be good, or it could be very bad.

To be honest, I want good outcomes from this project. Only the best. I’ve had some ideas, for whole worlds, that are so perfect, that people wouldn’t believe they are real.

Want those kinds of results. And I’m running out of time. My days are numbered. So what I’m asking, is for your support. Help me do what I need to do, and make life better for everyone. I see this as an important project, that matters to me. And, really it’s in your best interests to support my project. Because making my life better, will in the long run, make your life better.

Results may not happen fast; however eventually they will happen.

I believe, everyone would be happy with the results.

I’ve got some crazy dream, that you wouldn’t believe. And, I want your help; to make it happen.

I want an infinity, of eons; to live my best lives, and all my wildest fantasies. You can be there too, to share the living with me.