Who Am I?

Who Am I?

Upon turning 50 next week, I’ve had to consider the question: “Who am I?”

This may be a very complex question to answer. How does a person go about finding out, just who they are? Most people are really pretty simple. They allow what they are against, to define them. Or what they have been brainwashed into believing. Everyone trying to fit in. It’s easier to conform, then be different.

And, that leaves me in an interesting dilemma . . .

I could tell you, that I’ve made up of everything that has happened to me, through the last 50 years. That however, may be too simple of an explanation. Not unless you took into consideration; everything that I have ever thought, felt, or taken in.

I have some long term goals, and some purpose in mind for my life. It’s not the average bowl of peaches. Most people dream of being rich, or good looking, or famous. My desires lead me to other places in this equation.

Because of the severity of my life. I’ve had no choice, but to chalk the last 50 years of my life, as training. It’s all been training for the lives that I want to live. And the lessons have been no cake walk. It hurt!! I’ve dealt with a huge amount of pain, and discomfort in this life.

The fact that I’m willing to chalk this up as training, is a huge step in my current modus operandi. It’s a huge step in my life. And in some ways it makes me feel free. Free from having to seek revenge, or hate on people.

And I believe, this is just the beginning.

Want the life, of my wildest fantasies, and an infinity of eons; to live them. That would be proper, correct, and true. That would be enough living, for one cycle. What we will do come the next cycle, remains to be seen.

What matters, is who I become. That is what I am interested in. I have the potential, to become much. Want to develop my skills, and talents; through my own efforts, and have something that I can be proud of myself for having done.

I’m not at this point sure, if I’ve gone about this whole project in a wrong way yet. I guess that we will find out, soon enough. Maybe results will be coming down the line in a matter of a short period of time. Who knows ?

Want to enjoy living, and have a world that isn’t based upon survival to live. Want a home world, that is done correctly. A better world is not only possible; but very practical. And, I want to be there, for it. That matters to me.

Hopefully things will work out, and we will all have something great!!!!!

In the event that you don’t know me personally; please understand that I’m a person with a lot of depth. I’m not shallow, or superficial. There are things, that I understand; that are beyond most people’s grasp. I long for those who will talk with me. This world, feels really lonely to me. I’m not understood; that doesn’t mean that I’m bad, it just means that I’m different.

If you knew what I want; your mind would do backflips.